Waiting

Pale windows stare two sightless squares

Through empty walls - stark and bare

Where shadows walk the lonely miles

Deserted halls of ghosted mind...

And I close my eyes

I close my eyes.

Hear the final hush of closing doors

Scraping back the meager store

Of memories that echo round

Haunting in their mournful sound...

Of yesterdays gone by

Yesterday’s gone by.

Fingertips on dusty panes

Reveal the path of sorrowed stain

And leave behind a plaintive sigh

Inside a long deserted mind...

Leaving it behind

Leaving it behind.

Through these halls a current winds

Twisting, turning down through time

Tilling up the river floor

In silt that settles on the shore

Childish voices stream and bubble

Along the years filled with trouble

Overflow in shady pools

Of absent absent womanhood

Passing through my mind

Leaving it behind.

Paths that led me once astray

So clearly now define the way

From innocence to something less

Lifetime spent with nothing left

Now standing in this vacant place

So desolate without a trace

Of He who walked along those years

I swallow back abandoned fears

He wouldn’t leave me here...

God?

You wouldn’t leave me...here?

A hollowed heart utters hollow prayers

A clutching soul clutches empty air

And blind eyes squeeze closed ‘gainst the light

While longing, longing for the sight

Of You

God...

Where are you?

I sense your presence - feel your being

See, but yet - I am not seeing

Straining hard against the bondage

Of an ever pressing silence

Of abandonment

Of a vacant mind

An answerless request

I guess

It’s true

You’ve left me...here.

Despondent.  God, and so discouraged

Doubts once quenched now over-flourish

Overwhelming, overcoming, Lord...I quit...

I’m over running.

Over, Lord.

I’m over, through...

I’ll sit and wait

I’ll wait for You.